So, I was taking attendance for an 8th grade class in my office which is located off the side in my room. As I was taking attendance I heard one of my boys call someone retarded pretty loudly. So I yell from the office...
Me: "Josh, watch your language!"
Josh: "But..I said blow DRYER"
Me: *facing my computer trying very hard to not laugh my ass off* "I'm commenting on what you called someone!"
Josh: *slightly red faced and confused* "huh?"
Andrea: You called someone retarded you idiot!

The whole class was in hysterics.

Ah, 8th grade.

So I am awake.

I haven't posted for awhile, not that I haven't been doing stuff mind you.

I keep track of points (not as much) but I have been watching what I eat...I haven't been exercising. That is something i need to remedy. But I have been hiking on the weekend for several hours and love it.


I am awake for one main reason.

I'm a bit lost at the moment. I know what I want to do and essentially NEED to do, but I can't right now.

I want to move out. In reality I need to get the fuck out.

I'm not sure how much I want to put on here about this but I am feeling a bit loquacious so we may get it all.

I have been trying. Now, most of you are aware that I have been trying. Trying to live on my "own" trying to be successful in my chosen career path and trying to make friends, trying to have an adult life essentially.

Now, I have also been trying in where I live. Once upon a time a long time ago, Derek and Amy asked me to move in. All expenses included in rent (even food, they said) because Angela was moving out and they couldn't afford to live there without someone. They had even go behind my back and told my mom about it, so I was basically coerced and guilt-tripped into coming out here when I got my job and living with them.

Now I won't say that this is the biggest mistake I have ever made, but...oh, it is up there.

So we have had a few family meetings which i call a.k.a. let's bitch out Sara but not in full outright bitchy way. I get it. I'm doing stuff wrong. Can you just tell me like a normal human being? Do we have to be called into court every time?

I hear Amy complain about having roommates. I'm sorry you need them. I'm sorry I am such a pain to your existence, but you asked me to be here when Angela moved out and then when Angela was unhappy where she chose to live you offered her the other bedroom. It was your choice. Take some of the accountability. You chose to ask me. You chose to offer her. You could have chosen to move into a smaller place that you could actually afford and then you wouldn't need us at all.

Derek and I had an explosion (well, Derek did) but after he got out the initial "(@(&#**#^&%!!!!!!" we talked it out and I made my claim that I would be trying to move out ASAP. He brought up a few points that were bugging him. I told him some of mine. He was upset I hadn't told him how I was feeling, but I am under their roof. I am not the type who rocks the boat. So we came to an agreement of sorts and he honestly hasn't had a problem with me since and I have felt a lot better with him. It's good, me and him. I'm glad about this too. And even though he is my brother and he is Am's wife...he is the most impartial out of all of us. Which is what led to tonight.

I could feel it in the air. Amy is pissed at me. Angela is kind of too. Vinnie...I dunno but I honestly haven't been engaging him that much ever since Amy gave me another talk. Which is something I should talk about first. Amy asked to talk with me at home after school one day, so I came home and she talked to me about my attitude with vinnie. This is not something I am going to deny. I teach middle schoolers all day and he talks to me like my students a lot of the time. He is snotty to me, I give it right back. She tells me it is driving her nuts and I need to set an example. Okay, I'll try. A lot of this had to do with the wiifit. (Part of the reason I'm not using it) Yes, I would "tell" Vinnie that I was going to use it. But I was stating a fact and I would try to catch him before he was on it. "Hey, I'm going to use that at 7" "Vin, I'll be on there in half an hour" stuff like that. Because everytime I did ask him, there would be eye rolling, shoulder heaving, big deep sighs...and I am not going to put up with it. So I tell him with ample warning when, and there shouldn't be a problem. That is something that Amy had told me to do, so I was using that strategy. *shrugs*

Then there was the second thing on her list which had nothing to do with me living in the house. Her friends told her that I apparently am snotty and kind of a know-it-all. I got upset at that and I ended up crying. I am emotional and it hurts to think that is how people see me. Especially the friend she had told me said that because I really liked her and went out of my way to be nice and offer help and whatnot. She was cool. Now...I pretty much don't need that kind of judging in my life. My friends are my friends because of how they like me. If she thinks that about me...I don't need it or want it. This is probably why I don't have a lot of girl friends.

This led me to thinking. If I am friends with my friends because we are alike in our thinking then she is friends with her friends because they have the same thoughts. Because ever since her friend told her that ad then she told me she has acted completely different.

I left after that part, she had said there was only two things and that was the second. I had to get out of the house....so now back to tonight. Amy told me to clean-up something...and they way she said it....I could just tell. So I asked Derek about it after everyone went to bed. Yeah, she has a problem with me. Like a major one. She is listing this, that, and the other thing, complaining to my brother about it and when he asks if she wants him to talk to me she says no. But I can TELL there is something wrong. I can. And it stresses me. Apparently she thinks there is no improvement on the Vinnie thing. I'd say there was nothing to improve on cause I quit the wii fit until I can buy my own wii and I really haven't had to talk to him about anything at all. Then there was this pan I use and I use a fork on it. She asked me not to because I was scratching at it, so now when I do I do scrap the pan with the tips of it. I do still use a fork, I am just more careful. Apparently I am ignoring her. If she would have asked me I would have told her this and if she still didn't like it fine, I would freaking switch to something else. I guess she has washed that pan a few times, derek told her not to, I agree with him. I tend to use the same dishes and if I leave it by the sink it's because I am going to wash it and use it again.

....
it's nit picky stuff, but it is causing a great deal of stress. I guess her and Angela talk about me and everything I do wrong too. Whcih, I told Derek...if I am doing stuff wrong why don't they just state it? I honestly feel like I am the only one who is making an effort. Derek told me not to keep my computer stuff out. OK. Everyone had a problem with putting the dishes in the dishwasher, I put all the dishes I don't have to hand wash in the dish washer right away if I can. I only do laundry once every 2-3 weeks and I don't keep it out very long. I forgot my sweater once but how many times have I found 3 day old laundry in the washer because someone forgot to put it in the dryer? and how often do I find the stuff in the dryer? I take out garbage, I try to park where they tell to exactly, I clean my stuff off the table. I might forget a thing or two but...what about the unfolded laundry that is all over the floor and in two baskets? What about the apple dumpling that was left out for TWO DAYS. What about all the times that I clean up that stuff and never even mention it? That was one of the issues when Derek and I talked. I would tell Amy everything I did and she thought that I was trying to get praise. No, I was telling her what I was doing under her roof. Now that I don't mention anything apparently I am doing nothing.

The bathroom too. I share it with Vinnie and Angela. I take a 15 minute shower at max and then I am done. Collectively they take an hour and a half. I barely get to brush my teeth anymore (I use the kitchen sink) and a lot of the time I have to go use the bathroom in Derek and Amy's room cause they are in there for so long. When I shower, I might not scrub, but I do spray the tub with cleaner. When I brush my teeth I make sure there is no toothpaste on the sink. If I splatter on the mirror I wipe it up. Angela left a note the other day asking us to work more to keep it clean. That's funny cause I don't get to even use it. I don't even dry my hair in there anymore. I didn't want to add the hair to the floor.

I ask advice of Amy alot. I'm not sure how to do a lot of things (like taxes and different stuff) so I ask her...if she has an issue with me asking, she just needs to tell me to stop. I'll call my mom, honestly at this point, I would rather.

I'm frustrated. I have changed a lot of things that I do in order to not get on anyone's nerves..but apparently it is worse than ever. I don't even want to know what Angela and Amy are saying about me. I don't think I could take it. I feel though, like I am the only one making any effort. I'm trying so hard. I buy my own stuff for food, I buy my own stuff for laundry, I keep my personal belongings in my room. If I do make a mess I get the majority of it right away. I sweep, I clean-up Josie's things, I've done a ton of dishes when I get home alot...I can only give so much effort...and I'm almost at my 110% level.

Derek sent me text the other day saying that he knows it's counter intuitive but he wished I would complain more. Because through ALLLL of this...Derek told Amy that he has never once fielded a complaint about any of them from me. I might complain here and there to my friends, but it's never too much and I get it out and then I'm ok. If it is a serious enough problem, I talk to them about it. I told Angela about the bathroom thing (has it changed, no) Vinnie had some bathroom issues (he is doing better) Amy is set in her ways and it is her house. I don't tell her much because she's got two kids and a career...what is she supposed to changed? I just try to help out here and there and it's just going unnoticed. The only thing that is being noticed is when I don't do something or when I do something they don't agree with.

I don't complain because I don't like to rock the boat. I also don't complain because in the long run it's not worth it.

I'm trying. I told Derek to tell Amy that too. I am putting effort into changing, but there is only so much I personally can do. I'm trying and I am tired.

Derek wants me to have it all out with Amy...kind of like how we did. I would like to not relive that experience but if she truly wants to talk and not just tell me everything I am doing wrong and so on and so forth I will. I am up for discussion. But if it is going to be a rain on Sara and lets smack her a few times across the mouth as well...I don't want it.

My parting words with Derek for this evening were, "I'm trying...I am trying hard..and I honestly have nothing bitchy or bad to say about Amy or Angela or Vinnie"

and I don't. This journal was not written as I sitting and crying or seething with rage. I m quite calm and trying to see the other sides to this...but I am just really confused a frustrated.

Have you ever had to live your life with someone or lots of someones watching your every move and then judging you? Because that is what is going on. I'm confused about why this is happening and frustrated that no one actually *wants* to talk.

I'm tired of trying and I'm tired of being watched.

I need to get out.

ended: 1:18 am

Monday
Gym: 32 min
Points: 20/22 (18/22)
BMI: -1.41

Tuesday
Points: 20/22
BMI: -1.52

Wednesday
Wii: 1hr 16min
Points: 19/22 (14/22)
BMI: -1.48



So I still have been going strong. I haven't counted a few things here or there...I small slice of cake at work, a cookie there. I mostly say no though, or I only eat a bite or two to be sociable and not rude. I am aware when I make that choice and I am not mindlessly munching. I had this antsiness last night and I knew Amy had made cookies...I crept into the kitchen to gank one. I wasn't hungry it was boredom it was a start of falling off the wagon. Fate intervened. Amy had taken them to school. No cookies to be had. So it was good.

It is hard I am not denying it. The biggest thing i need to keep in mind is that I am seeing results. Every morning when I wake up I see my weight fluctuating...but it is downward. Currently my jeans are in the dryer because I am trying to shrink them...I was able to pull them off withou unbuttoning or unzipping them. I had stretched them out with my weight and now that it is going away my jeans are just sagging. I think this may start happening with more in a few more pounds. I hope.

had a big day today! I went to the Phoenix Comic con where i met terry moooooore!. He is a very nice man and funny! I went to his panel and I had a great time. I am definitely not the big huge nerd i used to be. I was wandering around and looking about and MAN i am NOT one of them AT ALL. I guess I grew up some more in ways i did not even realize. I am kinda sad but I am soooo glad I am not a 13 year old girl who goes "KAWAAIII" anymore.

I will have pics on my facebook soon! I didn't take many...but I got a few nice ones. I have me wif terry moore, jo chen, and a storm trooper who admitted to me that it was a bit warm in his costume.

I went out to a very yummy lunch with my friend Neil, I didn't know where we were going so I actually did not eat breakfast because I didn't want to fuk my points up to a place where I couldn't eat dinner. Which was smart cause without exercising and with dinner I was over on points today!

But I went to the gym because I got home early (the con was tiny) and I was bored. So I cleaned my room and then I walked to the gym. It only took about 10 minutes to get there and I wasn't rushing so I may never drive again.

I did another 32 minutes of running and walking on treadmill. But this time instead of walking .25 miles whenever I walked I did .2 and I kept it at 3.9 when I walked for all of them except for the last one. I did 4.0 for the last one. And for all the running I did 5.0 and I would run from the .2 and on until I hit the mile so I ran 8.0 twice. I think when I go to the gym tomorrow or the next day I will walk for 4.0 at .15 instead and run the rest. 3 miles in 30 minutes will be mine!

was online most of the evening yesterday and forgot to post!

yesterday:
wii: 0
gym: 0
points: 16.5/22
BMI: -1.06

today!
wii: 30
gym: 32
points: 21/22 (16/22)
BMI: -1.27

I have a goal. I have been running/walking on the treadmill at the gym. I want to run 3 miles in 30 minutes. This..is fucking hard. I've been trying to do little boosts in speed. I got to 2.4 miles in 32 minutes today. The other day I only had 2.3 so I went up another 10th of a mile. I walked 3.9 for a quarter of a mile then ran 5.0 for 3 quarters for the first mile. Then I went down to 3.8 for the next quarter and then I did 5.0 for half a mile. Then I went for 3.8 for a bit then 3.9 for another quarter. Then I ran at 5.0-5.2 until then end of the 30 minutes. THEN I walked at 3.8 for the cool down for 2 minutes and got to 2.4. *huff puff*

I thought I was out of food early. But then I found some stuff I had stashed in the outside fridge. Thankgoodnes I put the stuff with all the late expiration dates out there! So I had alfredo pizza and a salad. I also made angela a salad and gave her another third of the pizza. I have to go shoppping this weekend anyway so I want to get rid of m food that is gong to go soon anyhoo. But I was happy I had food...I thought I was screwed and was gonna have to fast food it or something. I am glad I came home after the gym and double check before I went out to get something.

wii: 34 minutes
gym: 32 minnutes
points: 17/22 (11/22)
BMI: -1.09

I was ditched yet again this evening by my workout buddy. She always lets me know last minute and I get pretty mad. I still went to the gym. Usually I don't but I want this to work. I won't let it stop me. Is just kind of funny to me. She decided a few weeks ago to do this workout thing because all her clothes are really tight and uncomfortable. "lets do wii fit and weight watchers! I'll help you keep track and we can workout together!" She still goes out all the time, rarely goes to the gym, and she did drop down four pounds, so she quit pretty much all together...but then gained three back! I know she needs to find something that works for her, but she is not really putting the effort into something that she really does want. This confuses me. I mean, I always wanted to be healthier and thinner but I was never too bad so I didn't really worry about it. But now I need to worry about it and it really has changed my attitude about everything. She is about to go up a dress size...you think she'd be on the wagon more than off. I guess not.

A pair of my pants that were starting to get really tight around the waist fit nicely again. It was starting to hurt to sit! So I am glad I am going down.

My principal from my last school just set out an e-mail about a hike on the 31st I am thinking about going on it. I have been wanting to hike and I don't want to go by myself. So this would be the perfect solution.

Tomorrow will be the first of week 4 of my doing this thing. I have a bunch more weeks to go. But week 4. go me.

Friday: 32/22
Saturday: 17.5/22
Sunday: 19/22
Monday: 28/22

Tuesday!
Points: 16/22 (11/22)
Wii: 30 min
Gym: 32 min
BMI: -.7 (all together today)

celamowari came for a lovely visit. I did...okay food wise. We went out for a lot of meals, so I did the best I could. We also did a lot of walking and we climbed a mountain thing so it's not like I was sitting around and being lazy. He left today, so it starts again. On thursday will be my fourth week doing this stuff and while i am yo-yoing a bit I am losing. I just need to keep going. I am working toward my goal slowly. I think I should be able to get there or be close to my first goal by my spring break. At least that is what I am hoping.

I think i go to bed now though, it was a horribly early morning and I had to go to work as well and then I worked out too. I am exhausted.

wii: 1 hr
gym: 0
Points: 18/22 (12/22)
BMI: ÷.04


aaaagh.

wii: 1 hr
gym: 0 (Stupid Mentee meeting. gr.)
points: 22.5/22 (16.5/22)
BMI: -0.22 (-0.92....apparently I can't do math. This is the correct number)

Just a quick entry today. I had a meeting then went over to Amanda's and April's for dinner. They provided me with all the nutritional info that I needed because they want to support my decision to get healthy. I brought over the rest of my spinach leaves and brownie bites with cool whip. I will be having a guest soon ^_^ and it seemes to me we might go on a mini vacation so I will be eating out quite a bit. I am going to try to figure out what I can and can't eat out on the road and see if I can maybe pack something in a cooler, like fruit or something for breakfasts, so I don't blow this thing.

GYM will happen tomorrow. I want to RUN!

wii fit: 1hr 1 min
gym: 0 (buuu, I wanted to go...tomorrow! I wait for no one)
Points: 20.5/22 (15.5/22)
BMI: -.17 (-1.00)

I was gonna go to gym, but my workout friend canceled and I didn't get her message until much later. Ah, always tomorrow. So my BMI is actually probably less than this. I weighed myself this evening because I did not get the chance to this morning, so I still lost all of this after I ate all day and what not. So, I weigh myself in the morning the next few days and see if there is even more of a difference. BMI might not seem like much of a difference, but it really is...weight wise I am seeing results, where those results are...I am unsure. Usually I measure myself, but at the point I started this I really did not want to depress myself.

I am excited...I thought I blew it this past weekend. I was above my point range and didn't work out technically...so I am so very happy.

I am almost halfway to my first goal!

when I get to that first goal...I am buying two new outfits. As a gift to meeeee.

I was over on points both days. Not by much, today was 23.5/22 and yesterday was 24/22. I didn't get to exercise perse, but I did walk around a mall for a couple hours on Saturday and was cleaning out my room through the day. I did that as well this morning, cleaning, dusting, vacuuming. Whatnot. So it's not like I was sedentary all weekend long. Just didn't break a sweat.

In my quest to try to make myself and my life better, I have been doing things here and there. I have been getting rid of MASSIVE amounts of stuff. The used media I take to Bookman's to get credit for, so if I go I can buy something and not spend money, but I am also really picky with what I buy. I don't want to waste the credit. I had a garage sale to get rid a bunch of stuff that I came down here with that I didn't want. I donated the rest to charity...I didn't want to let it all go to waste. I am still cleaning out, I went through my clothes again and my shoes, cds, books and my jewelery. I now have a small mountain of more stuff to donate/Bookman's. I really don't understand why I have this much stuff. There are a few things I am on the fence about getting rid of, I just can't make myself yet. I also probably have a quarter of the manga that I did own. Today, I was dusting my room and about to put this lace doily runner back on my dresser when I realized I hated the thing. I didnt buy it, I cam down here with it and it was not my taste at all. I found these 2 rug things at Target that I folded in half and put on the dresser instead. I love them.

I also bought a new purse and wallet, my old purse/wallet/checkbook were all falling a part and you know? I didn't really like them either. The checkbook came with my checks, the wallet my mom gave me from her collection of back-up wallets, and the bag was a gift from Brad's mom from a while ago. I didn't pick any of it. So I went to San Tan Village and shopped around. I know the type of things that I like so I went to several different stores and ended up going back to the first store which was The Fossil Store. I found a purse and wallet that I absolutely love and I splurged. I am going to use these two things until they are dead. I do that with that type of thing, and this is what I am going to do with these, the difference is that I actually like them!

I am trying to be way cleaner and organized too...is sort of working. We'll see, I did some rearranging of things today with books and papers and my closet, so hopefully this all will help.

I am trying and I am doing a lot of thinking. So i think it will work. maybe.

wii:0
gym:0
points: 26/22
bmi: +0.03

i am fluctuating. was gonna go to the gym the angela, but she went out to get drunk (yeah, that's the way to lose weight, Ang) and then vinnie had a friend over and they were using the game room so I couldn't wii fit. I'll make up for it tomorrow and Sunday. but today was just a wash and it was tiring.

Wii Fit: 60 minutes
Points: 18/22 (14/22)
BMI: 0.00

Well, I got off my lazy butt today and wii'ed for an hour. I unlocked a bunch of reps for different exercises that I have, so that is neat.

I am close to the 10 hour mark in my game, so I am excited. I like how it keeps track of all the little things like that.

I haff to grocery shop tomorrow, I am almost out of food, which is good because that means I ate it! So nothing really went to waste. I am proud of me. That doesn't happen very often.

so, i am still trucking. is still early, but that is usually when it all ends.

Wii: 0
Gym: 0
Points: 23/22
BMI:+0.04

I am not too concerned with the plus sign on that BMI, bodies fluctuate in weight and I was wearing different clothes than what i usually wear.

I hate wednesdays, this day seemed to drag on forever. I am really tired too, am gonna go to bed early.

Wii: 40 minutes
Gym: 45 minutes
Points: 25.5/22 (17.5/22)
BMI: -0.07 (-.90)

Went to the gym today, no weights just walking and running. I ran the 12 minutes again and ran 5 more later. I think I could go longer by my pegs just get so tired. I need to build them up! I am really trying. My biggest issue is eating right now. I'm doing way better on the points, but it is the lateness of my dinner. I go to the gym around 6 and then I am home about 7 and then by the time I actually make dinner it is 7:30. Is just not good. But because of my schedule I get home around 5-ish and today I wii'ed when I got home and then went to the gym. I dunno, if it does start to affect my weight in the morning (when I weigh myself) I will prolly try to eat when I get home.

Also: will not be buying my chocolate milk is 4 points in the morning. too many points!

my new school is okay. we'll see how it goes.

Wii: 30 min.
Gym: 1 hr
Points: 26/22 (21 with exercise)
BMI: -0.53 (-0.83)

So I got up this morning, did 30 minutes of wii yoga! I also went to the gym today with Angela for an hour. I did a circuit for my arms so they will be dead tomorrow. And then I got on the treadmill and I did something I have never done before. I ran a mile in 12 minutes. I know that is relatively slow but I did it and I have never ran that long ever before. So...big milestone. Yay me.

I am doing good. I like it.

I kept up with my points over the weekend. I didnt do tooooo bad. I didn't really exercise that much but I set-up my classroom today and Saturday I walked around an outdoor mall for about an hour, so I did do activity.

I did really good yesterday, I picked up Janine from the airport and we went to the bar to celebrate Chris's Birthday and I didn't get any food or drink anything except for water. I was starving too. My stomach is not used to eating proper portions.

Tomorrow is the first day back to school and the first day at my new school. It will be interesting to say the least. I apparently have to go pick up my first class from behind the building. Good to know. I am also trying to figure out my workout schedule too. I have to be at school at 8:25. I prolly will leave about 8:10. I want to do my wii fit in the morning i think so I will have to shower in the morning too. I want to wii for about 30 minutes on Mon, Weds, Fri since i got to the gym on these days too. so 15 minutes to shower, 10 minutes to dry my hair, i need to make breakfast and it too sooo 20 minutes? sooo about an hour and half altogether. 6:20? 6:30? I was getting up at 6:30 when I was going to my other school, so maybe 6:30 again and see how much i can get done now! Tues. and Thurs. won't be too bad because I can sleep in later on those days. We'll try out the morning workouts this month and if it doens't work I'll try something different next month.

I live in a bad house for snacking, the aromas of popcorn and ice cream are wafting in the air.

WiiFit: 60 min.
BMI: -0.3
Points: 23.5/22

Did not get to the gym today, but you know what? I'm not mad about it or disappointed in myself because I got lost and wandered around a hospital for about 30 minutes. Woo. Reason for the hospital? One of my students in the last class I had, had brain surgery. I went to visit her and it was very difficult to make my way around the place. She is doing fine, they didn't even shave her head which was cool, she was worried about that before school let out. If she parts her hair to the other side you won't even be able to tell. I also had to go to a funeral today. Another one. It was really sad and tragic, it was one of my co-worker's kid. But a lot of us teachers came and gave her our support.

I also went to the grocery store (got some nice healthy food!) and went to the library, where I borrowed MirrorMask! I had seen it once before and was looking for it at Bookman's the other day but they didn't have it. Maybe if I can just sweeten my tooth with watching the movie I won't need to keep hunting for it.

I also did better on the points! I did already add the exercise bonus into it, I was still a little over, but it was waaay better than yesterday. The only thing that really made it jump up is that I bought this little chocolate pudding cup from the grocery store (actually, bought two) in the hope of if I had a few points here and there I could just munch on half at a time. Boy was I wrong. I did the math, one of these DELICIOUS little cups is 16 points. My daily allotment is 22. Even half is 8 points and that is a whole MEAL to me. So I cut it into fourths and will be eating these two cups until they are gone and then I am not going to buy them for a really long time.

My sister-in-law was telling me about this article she read that was saying that you should totally pigout every 18 days when you are on a diet, because your body gets used to the smaller amount of calories and then when you do a lot your metabolism kicks into overdrive and ou end up kickstarting the weightloss again.

I like this idea. bwahahaha.

Before



After



Just something fun I found, the first model is where I am at right now. The second model is where I want to be. Not made with exact measurements, but something for me to see.

so...apparently today was the kick in the head I needed. I haven't exercised YET, but as soon as my brother gets home and turns the damn tv to the correct thingy so I can actually use it...I will. I am planning 40 minutes of exercise and since this is the first day my BMI is 0. So...

WiiFit: 40 min.
BMI: 0
Points: 29.5/22

I am that many points over and I only ate two meals! Stupid Arby's. Well, it is about becoming more aware, I am planning on grocery shopping tomorrow, so hopefully that will help.

Also: I can earn points back when I exercise, so if I exercise for 40 minutes at a moderate pace I will earn back 2 points. For a total of 27.5/22. Still bad, ah well.